Greater Work Being Done
I kind of touched on this in my last post but I think I will share more details about what has been going on. My husband has been injured from the intense training he was doing for his job-change. He may be in need of surgery and so these past few weeks have been us trying to figure out: 1) what is wrong with him and 2) when is he coming home? It's been day after day of "wait until tomorrow." I don't know what made me feel like today would be different but once again, they told us to wait. I was so hopeful. When I heard the words filter through the phone, I felt my heart sink a little. Maybe it's the fact that we haven't seen each other for five weeks or maybe it's the stress of me moving without him...either way, I'm just so glad my mom is here. She came at a perfect time. Kaiden has been extra needy and I really felt myself getting frustrated with him this weekend. (Even my mom -- who has 5 kids -- can't believe how much energy he has, which is proof that he needs constant attention.) Packing doesn't allow me to give him 100%, which makes it difficult for us both. Ethan told me, today, to plan like he's not coming home for a few weeks. Expect to do the move without him, basically. He asked the higher-up's when he can expect to come home and they told him they honestly don't know. They suggested he take leave (vacation) and buy a plane ticket to come out here and then fly back when he's done. It's all so silly, really. I don't think most people truly understand what's going on because I don't even think anyone over there knows what is going on.Tonight, I stood in my garage and just looked at everything. How will this all fit in storage? Where are we even going to live after all of this? Even if it does fit, will it fit wherever we permanently move next? What if they don't let him leave and he really has to stay there and recover? I know I'm not the first person to go through all of this but that doesn't change the fact that this is a difficult stage in life for me. I am reminded, however, that focusing on my current circumstances takes my eyes off of the greater work that God is doing. I don't need to understand it, I just need to keep trusting and depending on Him. I can take comfort in His promises.On a side note, I've decided to move all of our belongings into storage this Wednesday and Thursday at 7 pm. I am trying to get as much help as possible so that the workload is spread out vs. one or two having to do everything for several hours. Wednesday is going to be dedicated to hauling our big items over and Thursday is going to be more of Ethan's work-gear and boxes. The storage unit is .7 miles away from our house (2-3 minute drive) so that shouldn't be too crazy. Please message me and let me know if you could spare even just half an hour...anything helps!